Alas, aside from the title, I have no other intentions to make more allusions to Oscar Wilde or theatre for the rest of my post, but we'll see how it goes.
Getting back to the main point, I thought I might dedicate a blog post to the subject of Why am I writing a blog at all, and What do I hope to accomplish.
On the one hand, honestly, I've always wanted to be a writer. My secret little heart of hearts taps away at the tiny keyboard in my mind and offers me up rough drafts for books, plots for movies, jokes for comedy routines, explanations for text books, and so on and so forth. The resultant mess has made brief forays out of my mind and allowed itself to be tasted by others, but eventually, and inevitably, it dries up rather quickly before its been allowed to amount to much of anything, ending up stale, flavourless, and forgotten. This little phenomenon can easily and probably entirely be attributed to a combination of fear and self-doubt. I'm afraid of sounding hackneyed, or trivial, or dull. I'm afraid to be unoriginal or boring. I'm afraid of being disliked. And to cap it all off, I have such little faith in myself that I am just about positive I'll be all of the above. Moreover, I am terrified of what people will think of me if I am honest.
Nonetheless, when I decided I was definitely going to keep a blog at least, I had a drafted set of rules in my mind, and numero uno was that I would have to be honest to a fault on whatever the subject was. I hoped to sort of scare-tactic my brain into production rather than submission, but it's rather had an opposite effect. When I write, I am being honest, but I'm choosing my topics based on how "Safe" I think they are for me to be honest, and I'm writing a lot less than I originally intended to because of it. So I think another approach is in order. I was thinking perhaps I could start keeping a list of topics I would like expand on, no matter how Safe or Unsafe they are (and I am welcome to any suggestions, too, of course), throw them in a hat (or whatever hat-shaped object I have at hand, since there is a woeful dearth of hats in my dorm room), and choose three at random, and then commit to writing on whichever one is speaking to me the most that day. Or something.
Oh, and the reason for keeping a blog on the other hand? It's a safe place for self-indulgent yammering under a thinly veiled guise of keeping in touch with loved ones. Love you guys <3
would like to hear about the trip on the 18th in one of your blogs. thought i would throw that into one of the hats. Love Boris
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