New Year's Revolutions

No, that's not a typo up there :3

So I did make some resolutions for this year. The first one I made was to kick my coke habit.

Not this kind.

I mean this kind.

 

 

Though possibly this kind.

 And I would snort any kind if it meant I could shit diamonds, I guess.

So that's been going fine. I don't really even want sodas anymore. I did experiment with a couple Fantas over the month but I think I'm ready to leave my sordid past, dripping with caramel colouring, high fructose corn syrup, and Red #40 behind me for good. Some people might laugh, but I really did have a true addiction to it. I even went through mild withdrawal symptoms. So uh. Yay me?

My next resolution was to stop beating myself up so much. Success on this goal is mixed - sometimes I do great at it, other times, not so much. It's still a work in progress. I've always had problems with being too down and too hard on myself, but it was worse than ever last semester. I managed to be down on myself so hard that I had basically driven myself down into a deep pit of extreme self-loathing, mired in near-constant feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy. At this point I don't feel like I'm out of the pit just yet, but I can see the light at the top - which is leaps and bounds over how I felt a couple months ago.

My third resolution phase is just now starting, now that I actually have money (thanx TUJ for taking until nearly a month after classes start to release my loan money - I didn't need food or anything!). But basically I resolved to pick up better habits and straighten out my life in reasonable, possible ways. I made myself a schedule to try to help make sure I have enough time to study, sleep enough, eat well, get chores done, and EXERCISE. My main health weakness I think has always been not taking enough time for myself. I overextend myself for long periods of time, and then completely withdraw afterward, letting my mind escape to some fantasy. It explains my life-long love of reading and video games, haha. Not that there's anything wrong with these things, but I haven't been good at pacing. I have a little time set aside in my days now where I can just unplug, withdraw, and mentally escape, every day. Kind of like slowly letting the pressure out rather than just exploding and then seemingly taking forever to regroup. Things like sleeping and eating well tend to fall to the wayside in my cycles of working, stressing, researching, worrying, exploding, and then vegetating. It's not the way I wanna be.

Maybe my problems seem trivial to some, but these were actually some of the hardest things in the world for me to do. Saying them outloud makes them sound so easy, even to me. "Stop drinking soda. Stop beating yourself up. Follow a schedule." - but I've never been able to do any of these things in the long term. I'm really trying hard now to set things right within myself. And I think I can.

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